The Universe Granted Me Cheesecake

If you want it, manifest it! I will be the first to admit that I have had a shitty three years. Things went wrong from left to right. It seemed as though it was just meant for me to be frustrated and depressed. I had no hope at all, and EXPECTED for everything to crumble….

I ask because I care

“I am not asking you personal things to be nosey, I am asking you these things so that I know your trauma. You do not behave this way just because” Marriage has been the perfect blend of “this is where I want to be” and “what the hell did I get myself into”. I learned…

The Source of it all

If you want to run from what you are feeling, chances are you are right where you are supposed to be. Discomfort is not the most fun thing to experience. At the first sign of it, we do all that we can think of to get rid of it. What I have noticed though, is…

reFlect and dive deep

“We never get to see what we look like until we see our own reflection.” I am one of those people who believes it’s important to take stock of oneself. There is no way of becoming who or what you are destined to be, if no time is taken to reflect. You cannot see that…

A Moment’s Confession

It’s okay to not be okay. For the longest while I have been doing my best to hold myself together. It is not easy. As I sit here now, I am so full of emotion, both good and bad. My sons tried to leave the house without asking, then one of them is choosing to…

taboo thoughts

I get to a point where I hate feeling. There is just no joy in feeling things that cause discomfort or stress. At one point in my life, I managed to turn off negative feelings. I really did not feel much of anything outside of what I allowed. When I felt that churning in my…

In Transition

I have wanted to write for months, but  have not quite been able to do it. There have been so many ideas that I wanted to bring to the public eye, however, I just could not. I would feel the inspiration, feel that surge of energy that is almost electric. Yet, when I would sit…

Not Myself Anymore

Originally posted on Frank Solanki:
Every breath is marked to you Every heartbeat is calling out your name Ever since I’ve met you I haven’t been the same … These eyes long for the sight of you These ears long for your voice Ever since I’ve met you I’ve been left with no choice ……

Disney screwed us all!

I grew up watching Disney movies.I enjoyed the story lines and the fact that they always ended in such a positive and happy manner. The Princess got the Prince, no one was  poor anymore, and the villains got what they deserved. However, Reality and Disney were two different things. I was surrounded by  dysfunctional relationships,…

Family vs Relatives

I remember as a child I looked at my family as being this magical group of people that would always love and be there for me. I remember the roars of laughter, the smiles that seemed never ending, hugs, kisses, and dancing. Closing my eyes I can smell the aroma of food. Oh the food!…

To escape the madness

Lately, things have been extremely hard for me. Over the past year, I witnessed the horrors of cancer, dealt with family issues,the loss of my father, faced economic hardships, and the list just goes on and on. I will not try and weigh you down with all of that though, those are my personal struggles….